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100 1  Stern, Jessica,|d1958-|eauthor. 
245 10 Denial :|ba memoir|h[Hoopla electronic resource] /
       |cJessica Stern. 
250    Unabridged. 
264  1 [United States] :|bHarperAudio,|c2020. 
264  2 |bMade available through hoopla 
300    1 online resource (1 audio file (10hr., 26 min.)) :
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506    Digital content provided by hoopla. 
511 0  Read by Suzie Althens. 
520    From one of the world's foremost experts on terrorism and 
       post-traumatic stress disorder, comes an intimate and 
       astonishingly frank examination of her own rape at 15, the
       life of her rapist, and how both shaped her life and work.
       Jessica Stern is one of the world's foremost experts on 
       terrorism and post-traumatic stress disorder. She has 
       interviewed some of the most feared terrorists in their 
       own camps in Pakistan and Afghanistan. She has worked with
       the National Security Council and the FBI as an expert on 
       what extreme trauma can do to a person, be they friend or 
       foe. By her own admission, she feels no fear in these 
       terrifying scenarios. On a fall night in Concord, a quiet 
       Massachusetts suburb, in 1973, Jessica was 15. She and her
       sister were at doing their homework after ballet class 
       when a serial rapist, Dennis Meggs, entered their bedroom 
       and sexually assaulted the girls for over an hour. When he
       left them alone, they tried to call for help, but he had 
       cut the phone line. They walked to Friendly's to call 
       their babysitter from a payphone. She did not believe the 
       girls until she saw them. Their mother was dead, and their
       father was on a business trip to Europe with his new wife 
       from which he did not return for three days after hearing 
       the news. The girls wrote their statements for the police 
       in their best cursive hand. Following the example of her 
       family, her father the Holocaust survivor and her abusive 
       grandfather, Jessica denied the pain of her experience. 
       She kept striving to be good. Her academic and writing 
       career took off at a supersonic speed, but her personal 
       life stalled. She miscarried twelve times, and her 
       marriage dissolved once she finally gave birth to a son. 
       Until a friend's request forced her to sit down with her 
       police file in 2006, she had disassociated from most of 
       the details of the attack and its aftermath. But, when she
       did review the file, something clicked in the mind of this
       world-class social scientist. She had to know the truth 
       and could deny her feelings no longer. She began an 
       investigation, with the help of a devoted police 
       lieutenant and her new husband, to find the truth about 
       Dennis Meggs, the town of Concord, her own family, and her
       own mind. The results are astonishing. In her own words, 
       "Nabokov once said, "Life is pain," a riff on the Buddhist
       notion that to live is to crave and to crave is to feel 
       pain. To live in this world involves pain. Had I not been 
       catapulted, in that one hour, half-way to death, and 
       therefore closer to enlightenment? In death we no longer 
       feel human cravings, no longer feel human pain. I was now 
       half way there. I was prepared to be quiet. I have been 
       quiet, and I have listened all my life. But now, I will 
       finally speak." 
538    Mode of access: World Wide Web. 
600 10 Stern, Jessica,|d1958- 
600 10 Stern, Jessica,|d1958-|xPsychology. 
650  0 Rape victims|zUnited States|vBiography. 
650  0 Rape|xPsychological aspects. 
650  0 Denial (Psychology) 
650  0 Rape victims|xRehabilitation. 
700 1  Althens, Suzie,|enarrator. 
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